- Because the essence of Shelley was about being in a moment and letting that dictate the experience, I was not able to plan for it. I could not plan a whole day because it only came in glimpses. A moment could not be planned for, even if I was open and receptive to it (FN:11:1-4, FN:26:2-3, FN:39:9, FN:41:2-3, FN:60:5, FN:60:13, FN:87:12, FN:88:5).
- This avatar came to be what the others thought of as the “ideal.” Because I had previously decided that she would not have a voice, and could only be seen from the point of view of the other avatars, this got a little tricky. It was easier when I could show how my other avatars dropped their guard and tried to be more like Shelley.
- There was also a lot of development with Shelley in the field, as with all of my avatars. While I was still trying to figure out how to be her, I tried a new approach where I was kind of a yes man. I agreed to do everything as long as it was honor code appropriate and safe. It did open a few windows of opportunity, some more awkward than others, and I think that my experience was changed because of it (FN:41:23, FN:41:2, FN:58:1).
- Because this avatar was not supposed to have a voice, it made field notes an issue. To not take notes or write seemed almost impossible. I would think that everything was passing me by, or try to memorize everything to record later. It did not work. I did not realize until trying to be Shelley that just experiencing and not making sense of it is a lot harder than we think.
My conclusion for this avatar is that she could not be planned for. If a moment arose where she could have a better experience than my other avatars, then I would switch into her and let the moment consume me. Otherwise, it was more beneficial to be someone with a voice.
Photo credit to hm on flickr
(More data on Shelley can be found in my field notes FN:18:27, FN:26:5, FN:39:1, FN:39:4-5, FN:60:1-2)